I'm a Christian. I have a very special bond with the Lord. I know that He has a purpose for me, I pray for certain things to happen, but if not I can honestly say, "Let Thy will be done". I have a cell group, help out in church, know most of Don Moen's songs, bring people to accept Christ and perform a lot of functions like a normal Christian.

BUT, I also engage in let's say ... "worldly things". I like boys, I drink, I've tried different stuff, I maxed my credit card when MANGO's on sale, I talk back to my mom and have lead a typical non-Christian childhood.

I chose to remain anonymous so I can be as honest about what goes on my head as a child of God, even as I experience "worldly activities". But now, I'm all the more convinced that the Lord has given me these experiences not to keep to myself but to share.

I chose HAGAR as my inspiration for this, because although she was Sarah's maidservant, she was "having a thing with Abraham". I'm imagining her as my girlfriend. We'd make chika at Starbucks, she'd be crying to me and say "ayoko na... ayoko na talaga kay Abraham, ang kapal ng mukha nung Sarah na yun...kala ko ba akin na si Abe .. tapos a aawaw awayin niya ako ...???"

So she was trying to run away... but the Lord said, in Genesis 16:9...

...Then the angel of the LORD told her, "Go back to your mistress and submit to her." 10 The angel added, "I will so increase your descendants that they will be too numerous to count."

11 The angel of the LORD also said to her:
"You are now with child
and you will have a son.
You shall name him Ishmael, [a]
for the LORD has heard of your misery.

12 He will be a wild donkey of a man;
his hand will be against everyone
and everyone's hand against him,
and he will live in hostility
toward [b] all his brothers."

I'm not saying na magpakaconcubine tayo, I'm just saying that as girls, of course we'd feel like running away. For some, mas masaya gumimik kaysa maging Christian, for some its hard to go to church after having sex with someone, but for whatever reason, when you try to run away, try to come back "HOME".

For now, yes I still go out on "gimmicks" and stuff, so I wanna share also the parties I attend. Plus encourage people that if you still can't give it up, go lang. But still try to go to Church after.

I've finally figured out how to blog and what to blog about!


Aaannd, I am also finally back with Him as I have been acting like a brat the past 3 years. He's been around, its not like we totally broke up but sometimes I simply insist on my ways, even when I know it's not right. And no, this won't be anything like your Sunday School Teacher told you about.


Its just that, amidst my not-so-colorful life, He's always there! (Always been and always will be) HE has interfered with my career, my diet, my family and even my sex life! And thank God, He did!


Going out on Saturday nights and church on a Sunday afternoon is happening to so many people in the metropolis today. We're supposed to know when to stop but, well, sometimes we don't know how or when to.


So there. These are just my 10 cent's worth on what I see today as a young girl and my understanding of the Word of God. I'm gonna try not to lose my cool and keeping my faith.